Junior year of college is a mix of all different kinds of emotions- excitement because I’m almost done with college, sadness because I’m not quite ready to go. This juxtaposition of emotions is something I’m constantly struggling with.
I’ve been waiting for this stage in my life for as long as I can remember, yet I hear my dad’s voice in the back of my head. “Nicole, stop rushing to get through things, you need to stop and enjoy where you are in life right now.”
Ever since I was a little girl, I’d constantly be wishing to be in the next stage of life. I wished I could be a teenager already, then that came along and still wasn’t enough. I wanted to be out of high school and in college living out my life and finding my career path. Yet here I am… and for the first time, I don’t know that I’m ready to move on to the next stage…
For the first time, I’m realizing since entering college as a freshman that I didn’t really take the time to enjoy college as much as I should have. I realize now college is much more than just getting good grades, going to every class and being on time. College is about socializing, meeting new people- like the friends who you’ll have for life, and being able to make mistakes while it’s still okay to mess up.
Junior year has honestly been one of my favorite years here at High Point University. I’m finally finding the friends I’ve been searching for all along. Many friends have come and gone before I got here: because they transferred or because we just grew apart. I’m finally at the stage where I’m taking mostly major and minor related classes and starting to really be able to visualize my future, which is a beautiful thing. With the help of my advisor, I was able to find an internship and get on track to get a job in my field of study.
Now when people ask me what I want to do once I graduate, I can actually answer their question instead of dancing around the subject. At the same time, though, it will be hard to leave this place. It’s become not only my home these past 4 years but a place full of some of the most inspiring people who have wanted nothing but the best for me. I fear leaving these amazing individuals behind because I don’t know where my life will take me.
I take comfort in the fact that most of these amazing, inspiring, and caring people will always be just a phone call away when I need them. As my 4 years at HPU are nearing their end, I know I have to take the next step in life and not be fearful of the unknown but embrace it with open arms!
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